Monday, March 7, 2011

You Never Let Go

Yesterday I traveled to Fulton, Missouri, to help throw a surprise 60th birthday party for my mom. I was supposed to come and be part of the distraction to get her away from the church and back again in time for the party. My youngest sister, Gretel, said that I should come down for Sunday morning worship at their church. I decided I would, and I never realized that God would speak to me when I thought I was only there to distract the birthday girl! Today, I want to share with you a little of what God shared with me yesterday at Union Hill Baptist Church.

I don't know about you but I have had a hard couple of weeks. Three weeks ago, I was sitting in the hospital with my mom waiting by my grandma's death bed. Two weeks ago, we were at Grandma's funeral. This week I was supposed to be away from my home church again but I was actually able to be in a worship service with God's people and it felt great! So I get to surprise my mom and tell her that I came to celebrate her birthday which made her happy. Then we went into church.

A young man named Scotty (who has an undetermined part to play in my family as he sent my sister Mary a rose for Valentine's Day...but I digress) gets up to sing special music. Before he sings, he shares a testimony about what has been going on in his life. Scotty has been going through a rough time. He is dealing with the fact that he is in a season of disappointment and that it has been hard to see God lately and that he is waiting for some of his hopes and dreams to be answered with no parent response from God. He tells how this continued inaction and disappointment has led him to continual sadness and even some depression. He is braver than I am. I would never get up in front of church and say those things. Still the tears come to my eyes quickly. But Scotty isn't finished. He then shares about how God has helped him to realize that sometimes God puts these times in our lives so that we will appreciate the outcome and that He is always there with us and He will never let us go. Then Scotty sang "You Never Let Go" by David Crowder Band.

I can't help it. The tears start falling silently but steadily. I understand what he is saying. I know how Scotty has been feeling. I have lived there lately. There are a couple of things that I would really like to see happen in my life--that I feel God has promised me WILL happen in my life--that haven't come. I have been dealing with disappointment and waiting. It has beaten me down again and again. The question is will I claim the same promise that Scotty did? Will I trust that God is using this so I will see and recognize and appreciate the good things that He brings out of it? Will I trust Him to never let me go?

Only time will tell.

I have SO much more to say about all the things that God said to me yesterday through Scotty and Brother Frank yesterday. Come back on Wednesday to find out more.

Dear God, Please be with all the people like me and like Scotty who are dealing with a season of disappointment in their lives. Help us to see Your hand holding us and guiding us. May we seek Your face and find You in the midst of it all. Give us the strength to rely solely on You. Give us the patience to wait for Your timing and give us the joy of Your fulfillment of Your promises. Thank you for being faithful to us even when we lose faith. Thank you for never letting go. Amen.


  1. Scotty's faith is inspirational. I think sometimes God allows so much disappointment in our lives so when He does bring to pass what He promises we unmistakably know that it is Him. I can't wait to read what you have for Wednesday.


  2. Thanks for sharing, Stay strong girl

  3. Kandi, I totally agree. It can just be hard to deal with at the time.

    Chad, thanks for being supportive.

  4. This was was great. I love you so much!!!

  5. Thanks, sweetheart. I wish that you could have been there.

  6. I am so sorry to hear about your grandma's death. My thoughts and prayers are with your family during this difficult time.

    I think it's so astounding how God uses people to speak to us...I hope you find comfort and peace in this season of your life.

    I read the book you recommended and there was one part that really stood out to me, where Jane says to her lady in waiting "There are moments I can not bear it anymore." and the reply was something like "And then those moments become moments that you can." That really moved me because I have never thought about that before. So many times during my own seasons of disappointment or sadness, I have told God the same thing and it never occurred to me that every moment I did bear my cross, with God's help, was a victory. There is no not bearing it with God. Anyway, not to go on and on...:)

    I hope your week brings you happiness.

  7. Colleen, Thank you so much for the encouragement. I am glad that you read Lady in Waiting. I hope you enjoyed it. You should go back to my Lady in waiting blog and leave your feedback/take on it. That would be great!

  8. So glad that the Lord put you there at that moment. Isn't it amazing that Scotty had probably wrestled with sharing all that he did, and as he obediently shared before he sang, his obedience blessed YOU and met a need he didn't even know existed. What a loving Heavenly Father we have. Love the song you shared, and thanks for sharing it on Marriage Mondays. Praying for God's peace in this season,

  9. Julie, I am thankful that you take the time to read and comment here. I really enjoy your posts at Come Have a Piece. And you are totally right about God and His timing. Thanks again for visiting.

  10. Beautiful. Sometimes it is so hard to catch the lesson and the gift hidden within a hardship or a disappointment. We need to cling to Him and trust Him. He is faithful to bring us through it!

  11. Hind sight is 20/20 or so they say. It is truly one of the hardest things in the world to see the good while you are in the middle of the pain or the bad circumstances.